Hi! Sorry I haven't posted in a few days. Time really has been getting away from me here which I guess is a good thing. Things are going well. I'm just sitting on my bed studying away. Trying to get through all of the material this weekend. I am not behind but want to make sure I see everything again before next week starts. I guess Mini #1 is two weeks from Monday! Crazy!!! So I am trying to work hard but am also really resting up because this week killed me.
I did alot of working out this week which definitely helped with the stress. For some reason I started timing myself to see how long it took me to run five miles. Hahaha. Well Monday it took me 49:45, Wednesday it took me 48:42 and Friday it took me 47:40!!! I was like WOW... I dont' know if I can beat that but I might try again next week. I think it hit me today that I ran 15 miles last week (over a 1/2 marathon lol). What was I thinking? Now I am all sore haha but I am in good spirits so that is good. I also talked to my professors too about leaving in 3 weeks from Thursday. My anatomy prof was nice and excused me from my anatomy demo we have. They recently started to periodically take attendance and I didn't want to be marked down over one time. I love going to those too so he kinda got that idea and told me I wouldn't be marked down for missing! How nice. My PBL prof on the other hand too was quite nice about it. To miss a PBL and to get points (the most you can get is like 6 points I think if you miss anyway) you need to contact the dean and get a letter from her excusing you. Well I told my prof Dr. Larsen that I don't think the dean would go for my excuse (I'd really just be coming home to come home... no emergencies or anything). He told me that while I will lose points that I wouldn't need the letter to get them and really that losing the points isn't that big of a deal. This class is out of 100% like all others and whatever you get in there only counts towards 5% of each of your class grades. Of course losing points bothers me but I know that it really won't hurt me.
Anyway, so I am awaiting my other check which migh tbe here next week then I can buy my ticket to come home in a few weeks. Now I am at about 99.5% sure I'll be back lol. Not looking to be crazy busy with stuff to do at home that is what April will be for. I just want to relax mostly. After that weekend I'll only have like a month and a half till my next semester break so that's not bad at all.
Studying is crazy though. My 4 inch binder is already full and I have to start using another. I didn't print out everything last time er but I kinda wanted to this semester and maybe fix up last semester a little (if I can EVER find the time). But yeah, so much material! The learning curve has steepened alot but I am LOVING it!!! We just dissected out all the abdominal vessels (SOOO MANY). I never thought the human body was so complex. I was thinking 'Ooooh second semester anatomy is just organs' - hahaha, no no. So many ligaments, arteries, branches of arteries, veins, anastamoses (connections between them). But it is fun. There is TONS of clinical things we are into now too! Diseases, metabolic disorders, differentials (you see a symptom and this is a list of everything it could be) - this is everything I have been waiting for! But I just hope I can keep up like I have been. I get so nervous, like I said, about one day being in rotations and forgetting things! I don't want to forget this stuff - IT NEEDS TO STICK!!!
Anyway, what else - sorry this is long but I haven't written in so long!!. Umm, OOOOH! Well the papers for clubs and their budgets had to be in this week. I had NO idea how to do it. But if I didn't the Dominican Health Foundation would pretty much be non-existant. SOOOO, I did it! I even found a professor (who I have never talked to before) to be the faculty advisor. I made out the budget and turned it in. From last semester we raised funds for a refurbished neonatal ventilator. After meeting with the faculty advisor, Dr. Burnett, I found out it just came in from the States! So since I am pretty much the only one involved in this project this semester I get to go with her and deliver it to the hospital! They only had one of these and really needed another for all the newborns that died because the only one they had was taken up. BUT, I get to go and Dr. Burnett said she would introduce me to the administration of the hospital to discuss what projects we can work on for this semester! Just to see what they would need and all. So I am a little nervous but excited too! I have to also start stopping into all the semesters and make annoucements for a general meeting so I have more involvement (can't do this alone - well I might be able too but I am sure more people would love to help, after all this country has been so warm and welcoming to us all and really made us feel like Dominica could be called out temporary "home").
So last week was PACKED so I am sure you can see why I haven't written but I will work on that - sorry! So what is new at home??? I miss you guys sooo much. I talk about you all alot down here and all the good times we have! We are almost at about 10.5 months till I am out of here! BUT in order to get back home - I have to pass - soooo I better get back to it!
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! xoxoxo
Jessica
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
My 100th post - yikes!
Hi all! How are you all? I'm alright just sitting in class but today is quite fun. We are doing all clinical conditions and it is pretty exciting! So much better than 1st semester that is for sure. The work is insane - they are really making us work to be 2nd years but I am actually having some fun with it.
Stayed on campus late last night studying and I also had an anatomy TA session as well as a little but of a neuro TA session. Both of those for me are the same day, same time but I will just go to the neuro one (the whole thing) tonight. Those are Tuesdays-Thursdays 7-9pm so it stinks because I don't like being on campus that late but maybe I'll get more done this week.
Nothing much new still but Mini 1 is sneaking up on us ALREADY! Three weeks from Monday we take it - that's so crazy!!! That's alright though I'll be ready for it.
... Whew just got done with a lecture and had to go to talk to this professor about stuff - yipers. More studying for this girl today... After trying to keep all of the past couple of weeks of stuff locked in I hope I can keep it there while stuffing in more. That is what I am most worried about - forgetting! I'll look like such an idiot if I forget all of this when my rotations come about. I hope others felt the same way because it is starting to get me nervous! Slowly we are builing cases, differentials, treatment so it is a little nerveracking!
Okay, well I better go finish my last hour of class then off the the gym before the study party begins!
Love you all so much!
Jessica :)
Stayed on campus late last night studying and I also had an anatomy TA session as well as a little but of a neuro TA session. Both of those for me are the same day, same time but I will just go to the neuro one (the whole thing) tonight. Those are Tuesdays-Thursdays 7-9pm so it stinks because I don't like being on campus that late but maybe I'll get more done this week.
Nothing much new still but Mini 1 is sneaking up on us ALREADY! Three weeks from Monday we take it - that's so crazy!!! That's alright though I'll be ready for it.
... Whew just got done with a lecture and had to go to talk to this professor about stuff - yipers. More studying for this girl today... After trying to keep all of the past couple of weeks of stuff locked in I hope I can keep it there while stuffing in more. That is what I am most worried about - forgetting! I'll look like such an idiot if I forget all of this when my rotations come about. I hope others felt the same way because it is starting to get me nervous! Slowly we are builing cases, differentials, treatment so it is a little nerveracking!
Okay, well I better go finish my last hour of class then off the the gym before the study party begins!
Love you all so much!
Jessica :)
Monday, January 22, 2007
Week 3...
Well here I am sitting in class and good ole Dr. Smolanoff is going through every slide reading word for word... The library neglected to put up a sign saying the duplex option wasn't working with really took out a good chunk of our money for printing... Ahhhh Mondays :-P.
What is it about Mondays? Why not have these crazy days on a Friday when you are about to have a couple days off?? I still have 4 days to go before the weekend, haha. Oh well. So I have class today till noon then part of our class goes off to lab while we come back at 1 for a clinical coorlelate. Hitting up the gym after that (really excited about that!) and then running into lab to see what my table did for the day. Then finally, back home.
Today, I am probably going to be studying biochem most of the day and hopefully looking at semester one's stuff from last week that I just didn't get to last night. It was just a rough weekend and by Sunday I just couldn't take it anymore. Just a little lonely but I'll get over it. Nothing much happened this weekend. Just alot of studying. But it was nice being at home for a change. Campus is just not my cup of tea lately but as long as I get my work done I am completely fine with that.
I've just been pretty bummish and I hate being that way. Even though I am feeling pretty into the semester, it is only the studying that is keeping my mind off home. When I take a break, wake up or go to bed that is just all I think about... I really miss you all so much. But again looking for the better and at least I am second semester and now less than 3 months away from being a second year medical student (and less than 3 months until I can come home for my 2-3 week break - God I can't wait). Trying to think of the better is getting harder but I really think that this is my last few months where I am going to really dislike being here. After this I get new classes: pharmocology, immunology pathology, and FINALLY into the hospital. We only go a little but and the hospital is, how to put this nicely, but quite lacking. But at least I can start wearing my white coat around campus, haha. And yes, that is just 3 months away. Just gotta keep hanging on...
Well I am going to get back to my vitamins lecture and get my day going. Gonna try and make this a really successful week!
I love you and miss everyone TONS!
XOXO,
Jess
What is it about Mondays? Why not have these crazy days on a Friday when you are about to have a couple days off?? I still have 4 days to go before the weekend, haha. Oh well. So I have class today till noon then part of our class goes off to lab while we come back at 1 for a clinical coorlelate. Hitting up the gym after that (really excited about that!) and then running into lab to see what my table did for the day. Then finally, back home.
Today, I am probably going to be studying biochem most of the day and hopefully looking at semester one's stuff from last week that I just didn't get to last night. It was just a rough weekend and by Sunday I just couldn't take it anymore. Just a little lonely but I'll get over it. Nothing much happened this weekend. Just alot of studying. But it was nice being at home for a change. Campus is just not my cup of tea lately but as long as I get my work done I am completely fine with that.
I've just been pretty bummish and I hate being that way. Even though I am feeling pretty into the semester, it is only the studying that is keeping my mind off home. When I take a break, wake up or go to bed that is just all I think about... I really miss you all so much. But again looking for the better and at least I am second semester and now less than 3 months away from being a second year medical student (and less than 3 months until I can come home for my 2-3 week break - God I can't wait). Trying to think of the better is getting harder but I really think that this is my last few months where I am going to really dislike being here. After this I get new classes: pharmocology, immunology pathology, and FINALLY into the hospital. We only go a little but and the hospital is, how to put this nicely, but quite lacking. But at least I can start wearing my white coat around campus, haha. And yes, that is just 3 months away. Just gotta keep hanging on...
Well I am going to get back to my vitamins lecture and get my day going. Gonna try and make this a really successful week!
I love you and miss everyone TONS!
XOXO,
Jess
Friday, January 19, 2007
Week #2 done - where does the time go?!? :D
Well good morning! Here we are Friday again! Crazy! I'm just sitting in classroom 5 waiting for class to start. Today we just have an hour while part of our class is dissecting this morning then classes start back up around 1-3 (so today is not that bad). I guess everyday isn't 8-4 but with meetings, time imbetween and such it ends up still being a longer day than last semester but that is okay because so far I am liking second semester more than first.
Saw a good movie the other day, The Constant Gardener. I avoided that movie for years because I really thought it was about a gardener lol. I just got caught up in it and it was really a good movie. But as for yesterday I got alot of work done. I had classes, then an honor council meeting. I guess the dean wants to meet with us next week because she wants us to become more active (which is nice) so we have to meet back up and she said that lunch is on her! Sweeeeet. That will be pretty nice.
Today is a busy one, I just wanted to write a quick entry and get back to studying. I'll be in class till around 3 and workout hopefully within the next couple hours. That always helps. Have an OLAS meeting tonight but probably can only stay for a half hour because I have to count the ballots for the 1st semester student government elections at 5:30pm. Then HOME! Tomorrow is another busy one because I have my anatomy TA session 1-3pm and then studying all day long (most likely and unfortunately on campus) then have a review session with the awesome guy who helped us out last semester Amir at 9pm. Yes, 9pm on a Saturday night. I must be nuts, haha jk!
But I better get back to studying! I'll try to write again tonight!
XOXO
Jessica
Saw a good movie the other day, The Constant Gardener. I avoided that movie for years because I really thought it was about a gardener lol. I just got caught up in it and it was really a good movie. But as for yesterday I got alot of work done. I had classes, then an honor council meeting. I guess the dean wants to meet with us next week because she wants us to become more active (which is nice) so we have to meet back up and she said that lunch is on her! Sweeeeet. That will be pretty nice.
Today is a busy one, I just wanted to write a quick entry and get back to studying. I'll be in class till around 3 and workout hopefully within the next couple hours. That always helps. Have an OLAS meeting tonight but probably can only stay for a half hour because I have to count the ballots for the 1st semester student government elections at 5:30pm. Then HOME! Tomorrow is another busy one because I have my anatomy TA session 1-3pm and then studying all day long (most likely and unfortunately on campus) then have a review session with the awesome guy who helped us out last semester Amir at 9pm. Yes, 9pm on a Saturday night. I must be nuts, haha jk!
But I better get back to studying! I'll try to write again tonight!
XOXO
Jessica
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Yikes, time got away from me!
Hi everyone! Wow, busy week so far. But it's good - this week is already just about over (well over 1/2 way there).
We started up neuro and - WOW - non-stop information. I am going to be up so late tonight memorizing this stuff. It is sooooo intersesting though so I really don't mind it at all. Now I think my class is beginning to see what the upper semesters are saying when they sarcastically say, "Oh you are second semester? ...Yea, good luck!" But I am actually more excited and think I will do much better than last semester, so that makes me happy. We had our OLAS general meeting and it was pretty successful so that was fun.
Hmm, otherwise just studying... Nice walking around campus and not being the 'new' person anymore. I see smiling faces and fresh books (1st semesters) haha. But it is so cute! Was I that happy when I showed up? Yes... Well, I still am but in a different way, haha...
Well, looks like coming home is just about set. I think I am going to go ahead and do it. I am thinking I will be leaving here on a Thursday afternoon and I will be home Friday morning. Not sure if I will be leaving home on Sunday or Monday but either way - it is a short visit. It's be hard to catch people to see but don't worry my next 2-3 week break will be a little over a month after that so it isn't so bad... I'll let you know what is up with that as time goes on. I don't think it will be too hard to make up for missing a day or two - plus I will be studying on the plane. So, at least right now I am not too worried about it.
Hmm what else... Did I mention how much neuro we have?!? Oh yeah, talked to AES so all my loan stuff should be taken care of. I am just going to take out a little extra for my own sanity. I've always tried to be good with money so spending all this is hard to take, haha. But it is a good investment I suppose, right Ma ;-) ?
Sigh, alright well I am going to get back to neuro class and then head to the gym - get myself all PUMPED UP for studying all day and night, haha.
Talk to ya'll soon!
Love, Jess
We started up neuro and - WOW - non-stop information. I am going to be up so late tonight memorizing this stuff. It is sooooo intersesting though so I really don't mind it at all. Now I think my class is beginning to see what the upper semesters are saying when they sarcastically say, "Oh you are second semester? ...Yea, good luck!" But I am actually more excited and think I will do much better than last semester, so that makes me happy. We had our OLAS general meeting and it was pretty successful so that was fun.
Hmm, otherwise just studying... Nice walking around campus and not being the 'new' person anymore. I see smiling faces and fresh books (1st semesters) haha. But it is so cute! Was I that happy when I showed up? Yes... Well, I still am but in a different way, haha...
Well, looks like coming home is just about set. I think I am going to go ahead and do it. I am thinking I will be leaving here on a Thursday afternoon and I will be home Friday morning. Not sure if I will be leaving home on Sunday or Monday but either way - it is a short visit. It's be hard to catch people to see but don't worry my next 2-3 week break will be a little over a month after that so it isn't so bad... I'll let you know what is up with that as time goes on. I don't think it will be too hard to make up for missing a day or two - plus I will be studying on the plane. So, at least right now I am not too worried about it.
Hmm what else... Did I mention how much neuro we have?!? Oh yeah, talked to AES so all my loan stuff should be taken care of. I am just going to take out a little extra for my own sanity. I've always tried to be good with money so spending all this is hard to take, haha. But it is a good investment I suppose, right Ma ;-) ?
Sigh, alright well I am going to get back to neuro class and then head to the gym - get myself all PUMPED UP for studying all day and night, haha.
Talk to ya'll soon!
Love, Jess
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Week #2, coming right up!
Whew, alright here we go. I think tomorrow is going to be the longest day of the week so that is good. I get my dissection done so I won't HAVE to stay late on campus after tomorrow - but I still might... I'm thinking tomorrow will be 6:30ish to probably 6pm. Workout, classes, dissection, OLAS meeting...
This weekend I think was productive, still going... I am finishing up my studying now and going over first semester material that they did this past week too. It's not too much (no offense to the first semesters who read this - hey, I've been through it before) so I will get done with that quickly. Got alot of my stuff organized too so that helps. I'm hoping I can have a repeat of last night and do some relaxing before bed but it's only 8:30pm.
Going to talk to AES, my loan place, and see if they can ship me extra that I probably should have applied for in the beginning. If so, I might be set come back around February 22nd. Just like last semester, I am not getting my hopes up but it is in the back of my mind. I'm hoping though that I can get up early tomorrow to go to the gym before class. I don't want to stay on campus after the OLAS meeting so we'll see.
Well, still nothing is going on that is too exciting (exam-wise lol). My first exam isn't for quite some time (February 12th) so yeah, no fun panic or anything to talk about. So, I'll letcha go for now but I'll write again tomorrow after I get back to the apartment.
Miss you all!!! ... alot.
This weekend I think was productive, still going... I am finishing up my studying now and going over first semester material that they did this past week too. It's not too much (no offense to the first semesters who read this - hey, I've been through it before) so I will get done with that quickly. Got alot of my stuff organized too so that helps. I'm hoping I can have a repeat of last night and do some relaxing before bed but it's only 8:30pm.
Going to talk to AES, my loan place, and see if they can ship me extra that I probably should have applied for in the beginning. If so, I might be set come back around February 22nd. Just like last semester, I am not getting my hopes up but it is in the back of my mind. I'm hoping though that I can get up early tomorrow to go to the gym before class. I don't want to stay on campus after the OLAS meeting so we'll see.
Well, still nothing is going on that is too exciting (exam-wise lol). My first exam isn't for quite some time (February 12th) so yeah, no fun panic or anything to talk about. So, I'll letcha go for now but I'll write again tomorrow after I get back to the apartment.
Miss you all!!! ... alot.
Friday, January 12, 2007
Weekend is finally here...
Okay, this is good. Week one is behind me. Wasn't too bad but things are going to start picking up next week so I want to make sure that I have a good handle on this week's stuff now so I don't have to use my time next week to make up for anything. This week has been the brain and the kidneys - all very interesting and I really enjoyed it. We had a neuro lab today - where we are IDing all of the smallest structures of the brain! Just an introduction today (that went over about 2 hours!!! ahhhhhh) but I really liked it!
Tonight is the big party night. Earlier today was the White Coat Ceremony for first semesters so they are probably out too. I was bribed by Sana to go out but I ended up turning her down (love you though!!!). I am just tired, dont' really feel like going out (never really do here) and would rather study and get some good rest. Planning on getting up early in the morning to get started! I like getting up early - doesn't make me feel so bad to take naps if I know that I have been up for a while...
It's pouring pretty good - jeeze - I hope the girls are staying dry at Cabritz! Yikes! Nothing much really else new. Already just at 3 months and 1 week till I get home. Seems shorter than last semester but I'll take it! Not sure how the 1/2 way break will work out. I hate saying that I am coming home in 8 weeks and I never end up doing it. Even though I didn't promise I feel like I am breaking one. All flights are just 20+ hours both ways and I just don't know if I can afford that. We'll see but even if I have to wait, I have done it before and can do it again. I'm sure with my new schedule 8am-4pm time will fly even faster this semester.
Ah well. Okay well I better get some rest :D!
Goodnight everyone - dream great dreams!!!
Love,
Jessica
Tonight is the big party night. Earlier today was the White Coat Ceremony for first semesters so they are probably out too. I was bribed by Sana to go out but I ended up turning her down (love you though!!!). I am just tired, dont' really feel like going out (never really do here) and would rather study and get some good rest. Planning on getting up early in the morning to get started! I like getting up early - doesn't make me feel so bad to take naps if I know that I have been up for a while...
It's pouring pretty good - jeeze - I hope the girls are staying dry at Cabritz! Yikes! Nothing much really else new. Already just at 3 months and 1 week till I get home. Seems shorter than last semester but I'll take it! Not sure how the 1/2 way break will work out. I hate saying that I am coming home in 8 weeks and I never end up doing it. Even though I didn't promise I feel like I am breaking one. All flights are just 20+ hours both ways and I just don't know if I can afford that. We'll see but even if I have to wait, I have done it before and can do it again. I'm sure with my new schedule 8am-4pm time will fly even faster this semester.
Ah well. Okay well I better get some rest :D!
Goodnight everyone - dream great dreams!!!
Love,
Jessica
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Week one just about over...
Alright, that wasn't so bad... Our first week is pretty much done. We just have class tomorrow at 1pm for an hour and that's about all she wrote for the week.
I'm not too sure if I am just tired or lazy but I am finding myself taking like a nillion naps. Ah well, hopefully I'll be all napped out by Monday and ready to start some real hardcore studying again... I got alot done today though. I had my classes, did some studying, and finished a good handful of errands. I was pretty glad about that. I had a couple snacks at home and yeah... pretty much passed out. I just got up a couple hours later and am ready to get going... This weekend is going to be so long though that I am going to have plenty of time to study this week's material but hopefully I can do some reading and practice questions too.
Well I better get to it. This was a boring post - I realize. Tomorrow will be better!
:-P
Talk to ya soon!
Jess
I'm not too sure if I am just tired or lazy but I am finding myself taking like a nillion naps. Ah well, hopefully I'll be all napped out by Monday and ready to start some real hardcore studying again... I got alot done today though. I had my classes, did some studying, and finished a good handful of errands. I was pretty glad about that. I had a couple snacks at home and yeah... pretty much passed out. I just got up a couple hours later and am ready to get going... This weekend is going to be so long though that I am going to have plenty of time to study this week's material but hopefully I can do some reading and practice questions too.
Well I better get to it. This was a boring post - I realize. Tomorrow will be better!
:-P
Talk to ya soon!
Jess
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Back in the saddle again...
Today seemed to be a bit better. I had my usual classes (still short days until next week) and then I went to the gym. Working out always seems to help me with my mood. Just a fantastic stress reliever. After that I went back to the classroom to study for the afternoon. Started to feel like I was getting back into it. I think it will take until next week to be fully productive again but it's a good start.
I had an E-board meeting for OLAS as well today at 5. Just basically setting up the semester and getting ready to make out announcements to the campus of our first general meeting. Alot of nice things are planned this semester so it makes me excited. We are doing our boat party/after party for charity as usual and half of the profits are going to my other project the Dominican Health Foundation! I just asked if it could be considered for a donation and I am really glad I did! I hope so many people turn out.
As for now, I am finally home. I got a shower in, some dinner in my belly, and now watching a little tv before I start studying some more... It's funny now I see so many 1st semester students around and it really makes me think that I actually WILL get home someday. Hahaha. Not trying to be mean but knowing they have to be here longer than I do makes me feel alot better. They are even accepting people for next September! Wow, when those students come I will be a 4th semester student (God willing) and will be just about out of here! This is how I guess I need to be thinking, right Grandma? (*wink*) Just looking for the postive and looking forward to the time when I come home and not dwell on what I am missing...
Well, about that time to get motivated for a little longer before bed. Love you all.
Jess
I had an E-board meeting for OLAS as well today at 5. Just basically setting up the semester and getting ready to make out announcements to the campus of our first general meeting. Alot of nice things are planned this semester so it makes me excited. We are doing our boat party/after party for charity as usual and half of the profits are going to my other project the Dominican Health Foundation! I just asked if it could be considered for a donation and I am really glad I did! I hope so many people turn out.
As for now, I am finally home. I got a shower in, some dinner in my belly, and now watching a little tv before I start studying some more... It's funny now I see so many 1st semester students around and it really makes me think that I actually WILL get home someday. Hahaha. Not trying to be mean but knowing they have to be here longer than I do makes me feel alot better. They are even accepting people for next September! Wow, when those students come I will be a 4th semester student (God willing) and will be just about out of here! This is how I guess I need to be thinking, right Grandma? (*wink*) Just looking for the postive and looking forward to the time when I come home and not dwell on what I am missing...
Well, about that time to get motivated for a little longer before bed. Love you all.
Jess
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Wow, that was a close one!
Lucky you! You just avoided a pretty bummish post. I had it all typed out this morning and when I tried to post it, it went to "Page Not Displayed". So I lost it. Pretty much I was just upset, cried, went home, napped, yada yada...
Well... after that, I started to feel a little better. I got to talk to Tony (thanks so much honey :D ) and got to calm down a little. I'll get more into it tomorrow but I think I will be able to get happy here again pretty soon. Still need to get into the study mode but I think that will soon follow.
Time for bed right now - but I'll write again tomorrow...
Goodnight everyone!
Well... after that, I started to feel a little better. I got to talk to Tony (thanks so much honey :D ) and got to calm down a little. I'll get more into it tomorrow but I think I will be able to get happy here again pretty soon. Still need to get into the study mode but I think that will soon follow.
Time for bed right now - but I'll write again tomorrow...
Goodnight everyone!
Monday, January 08, 2007
Deep breath...
Hello all, productive day so far but still have to start studying. The gym was good. Really helped my mentality a bit. I'm excited to go back, lol. Oooh yea - back to my exciting life. I got back to the apartment and made sure that I got my room all straighened and unpacked before I let myself get a shower or food. Haha. But my room looks even better I think than before! I have pics from break ;-) Finding Nemo wall stickers in my bathroom and MUCH better 100% cotton sheets!!! This room is definately better than before.
So now I am just eating dinner then am going to start reviewing the day and getting organized for class tomorrow. I will talk to you all soon! Miss you so much already...
XOXO
P.S. I have two countdowns here for when I am coming home because I am not sure if I am coming home around March or staying again the whole time. So until I know, I'll just leave them both up...
So now I am just eating dinner then am going to start reviewing the day and getting organized for class tomorrow. I will talk to you all soon! Miss you so much already...
XOXO
P.S. I have two countdowns here for when I am coming home because I am not sure if I am coming home around March or staying again the whole time. So until I know, I'll just leave them both up...
Round Two.
Here, I am BACK in Dominica for another semester of this. Am I crazy??? I think so. I had wanted to post more at home but all I would have said was that I was having alot of fun and so glad to be near my family and friends - oh - and that I didn't want to come back. But I did. So, I got in last night but BOY what a trip! I left Saturday morning at 9am from my house and it took that long to get back, probably thanks to that 17 hour layover in Miami. So, I got all my luggage so that is good, along with my registation that got done. I was so excited to get some rest last night and even tonight. I had barely slept the past couple days. I didn't even know how I would make it through my first day of classes.
But actually, classes are over and I actually woke up! Haha. We had just 2 hours of neuro and 2 hours of anatomy. So not too bad. starting next week we go I think from 8am-4pm everyday. Things are already more clinical than last semester. I think I am starting to realize how fast this is all going and how much I still need to learn in order to have any sort of intelligence out there in my rotations next year. Haha, next year. BIG GULP. Classes went pretty well today. Gonna take a few days to get back into the swing of things. I saw everyone taking so many notes and stuff but I really didn't. I am not sure if it is because I thought it was pretty self-explainatory or I am kinda rusty. Hmm... Well, in about a half-hour I have to go to lab to do a quick intro thing. Should be pretty quick. OH YEA! I just heard that now the scholars now don't have to dissect their bodies and don't have to go to lab. That's a bunch of you-know-what. I know I still want to dissect but to get completely out of it and just observe a prosected body I think is a pretty dumb thing to make a "benefit" of being a scholar. I hope this isn't what happened to the 1st semester students. I think it will hurt them alot in the long run without getting a real appreciation for it.
After that though I am going to head to the gym to work off all the INSANE FRUSTRATION I am feeling from being back here. As it stands till the end of the semester, I have 100 days. 100 days of this first year left and I can move on to my second year. I hope it goes by quickly. Going home really didn't make me that much more motivated - it just made me want to stay home. The past couple days has made me think so much whether or not this is what I want to do. Don't get me wrong, I do - but being home made me realize how much I gave up and I've been crying alot over it. It will all be over in December when I am out of here - but then what? I'll be rotating and then very soon after being an intern. What will I be giving up then? Will it be worth it? I want to think so.
But yeah, after the gym I'll probably run home to unpack more, make some food, and start doing some work. All my thoughts about school right now and about home I am just putting a BLOCK on. I know if I think about it I will just being thinking QUIT QUIT QUIT. I really noticed that on the drive from the airport to campus. The whole plane ride home I thought about home, all the fun times, people, etc. Once I got in the taxi I had to stop. It made me too sad, too unmotivated (because of being sad - not because you all make me feel unmotivated directly lol, because you really make me feel like I can do this!). I honestly do have a mental block on thinking too deeply about home. I just think about missing it and that's as far as I go. I probably posted on this before but it's the only way for me to keep truckin' along.
Well, my classmate just told me this lab thing is now cancelled so now talking about home is now making me want to go to the GYM. I'm out for now, but I will now be writing regularly again.
I love you all so much and had a great time just being in the same area code as you. I'll be back soon and can't wait for the day when I come back and never have to leave again.
Love,
Jess
But actually, classes are over and I actually woke up! Haha. We had just 2 hours of neuro and 2 hours of anatomy. So not too bad. starting next week we go I think from 8am-4pm everyday. Things are already more clinical than last semester. I think I am starting to realize how fast this is all going and how much I still need to learn in order to have any sort of intelligence out there in my rotations next year. Haha, next year. BIG GULP. Classes went pretty well today. Gonna take a few days to get back into the swing of things. I saw everyone taking so many notes and stuff but I really didn't. I am not sure if it is because I thought it was pretty self-explainatory or I am kinda rusty. Hmm... Well, in about a half-hour I have to go to lab to do a quick intro thing. Should be pretty quick. OH YEA! I just heard that now the scholars now don't have to dissect their bodies and don't have to go to lab. That's a bunch of you-know-what. I know I still want to dissect but to get completely out of it and just observe a prosected body I think is a pretty dumb thing to make a "benefit" of being a scholar. I hope this isn't what happened to the 1st semester students. I think it will hurt them alot in the long run without getting a real appreciation for it.
After that though I am going to head to the gym to work off all the INSANE FRUSTRATION I am feeling from being back here. As it stands till the end of the semester, I have 100 days. 100 days of this first year left and I can move on to my second year. I hope it goes by quickly. Going home really didn't make me that much more motivated - it just made me want to stay home. The past couple days has made me think so much whether or not this is what I want to do. Don't get me wrong, I do - but being home made me realize how much I gave up and I've been crying alot over it. It will all be over in December when I am out of here - but then what? I'll be rotating and then very soon after being an intern. What will I be giving up then? Will it be worth it? I want to think so.
But yeah, after the gym I'll probably run home to unpack more, make some food, and start doing some work. All my thoughts about school right now and about home I am just putting a BLOCK on. I know if I think about it I will just being thinking QUIT QUIT QUIT. I really noticed that on the drive from the airport to campus. The whole plane ride home I thought about home, all the fun times, people, etc. Once I got in the taxi I had to stop. It made me too sad, too unmotivated (because of being sad - not because you all make me feel unmotivated directly lol, because you really make me feel like I can do this!). I honestly do have a mental block on thinking too deeply about home. I just think about missing it and that's as far as I go. I probably posted on this before but it's the only way for me to keep truckin' along.
Well, my classmate just told me this lab thing is now cancelled so now talking about home is now making me want to go to the GYM. I'm out for now, but I will now be writing regularly again.
I love you all so much and had a great time just being in the same area code as you. I'll be back soon and can't wait for the day when I come back and never have to leave again.
Love,
Jess
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
So not ready to go back...
Well break is almost over and I am hating it. I had some really good times being at home seeing my family and friends. Seems like there just wasn't enough time and it makes me sad. For the past day I've had a giant lump in my throat and have been beyond frustrated with going back. I'm excited to be finishing up my first year of medical school but I guess I have to take the good with the bad.
I have so much to do when I get back so I hope it is smooth. Have to figure out times for meetings, figure out my loans, etc. Really puts so much stress on me and I am just not feeling up to dealing with it. This week is all packing getting ready for another few months away so really not much fun going on. I am still not sure what weekend I can get back for my "8-week trip" but it just has to work out. I did the 4 months away but I don't want to do it again.
Today is just stressful. So many errands to do, lost my change purse with tons of stuff in it (first thing I have lost in months - yes I'm an idiot), long trip ahead of me this weekend, yada yada. I don't know what is with me but it is so easy for me to find the negative today so I hope I can find a way to shake it off because this isn't how I want to end my vacation.
Ah well, a few errands today then I guess back to do nothing. At least I am not at 16 months anymore on the island - now only a little more than 11. Not as bad. Sigh, alright time to shower and get motivated for the day. I'll write again soon and hopefully be more upbeat.
Jessica
xoxo
I have so much to do when I get back so I hope it is smooth. Have to figure out times for meetings, figure out my loans, etc. Really puts so much stress on me and I am just not feeling up to dealing with it. This week is all packing getting ready for another few months away so really not much fun going on. I am still not sure what weekend I can get back for my "8-week trip" but it just has to work out. I did the 4 months away but I don't want to do it again.
Today is just stressful. So many errands to do, lost my change purse with tons of stuff in it (first thing I have lost in months - yes I'm an idiot), long trip ahead of me this weekend, yada yada. I don't know what is with me but it is so easy for me to find the negative today so I hope I can find a way to shake it off because this isn't how I want to end my vacation.
Ah well, a few errands today then I guess back to do nothing. At least I am not at 16 months anymore on the island - now only a little more than 11. Not as bad. Sigh, alright time to shower and get motivated for the day. I'll write again soon and hopefully be more upbeat.
Jessica
xoxo
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