Disappointed but ready for a fresh start...

Okay, so the COMP didn't go so well. I missed my mark by 2% (4 questions)... So okay - poor me, poor me - now get over it. I was upset sure- and embarrassed but honestly in a way I think it will be nice to have an extra exam before my Step. The only worry is that if it will throw off my schedule but it shouldn't. As far as I know, I will take the COMP again May 13th and still be able to take my Step by the end of May or early June - so no worries. Of course, it would have been nice to kick its butt this time around but I am trying to think of the brighter side of things. I really would feel uncomfortable getting a 64% and JUST passing because then I really wouldn't know how ready for the Step I was. I know that just getting by would probably be an overall better situation than what I am in now, but I have developed a sudden intense feeling to just crush this test for making me feel all these different ways that I am actually looking forward to take it again.

Now, I am looking at it as studying for my Step exam. Sure I have to take the COMP first but seeing as I will be taking my boards soon (very soon) after - it is better just to look at it from that angle. I will be studying from the time I get to Saginaw until May so the COMP exam will be pretty much my last bit of studying for the Step, so it will serve as a great indicator of where I will stand for the Step the following week.

So, right now I have got all my books together for 5th, my USMLE World question bank, Kaplan's QBook (not using their Qbank) for extra if I want it - it only cost me $6 on Ebay. I am just ready to get to Saginaw and get going. I'm very excited to be staying in the hotel, even if it is more expensive. I am just taking my newly bought dress clothes and a bunch of books! Everything else will be set and I think that is just wonderful. No setting up a new place, just unpack a suitcase and I'm good to go. I love that! I can just picture me and my books now :)!

So yeah, I guess I was a bit disappointed. Tony and I had to put off the champagne for another day - but better days sure to come very soon! As for now, I am enjoying my last week of having NOTHING to do. Although I will probably go through my Bates in preparation for my 5th semester. It's really hard for me to sit around and do nothing and I think I am jsut about ready to get it going again! Yay for staying in Michigan!!!

Another hoop jumped through...

Aaaaaand it's over. The COMP exam was 4 hours and 200 questions and boy I could not be happier to have it over with. I am not sure how well I did - but I am just hoping so badly that I passed the mark I needed. I don't even want to think about taking that exam over... Anyway, just praying and thinking positive.

Now? Just got back from the Cheesecake Factory with Lynn and her mom and watching TV! I will be heading back home in the morning and I can't wait! I miss Tony so much and just miss being home after 3 teeny days. He is sick now with Strep throat it seems and I just hope the medicine he is taking makes him feel better over the weekend. All that is left to do now is relax and soak up some solid vacation time before heading up to Saginaw. It is pretty nice because even though I spent so much time worrying and studying for this exam today, I still have the same amount of time left over to have a pretty full break like I did on the island! Yay for that!

I had a nice time though here in Miami but honestly, I could not imagine staying here. I'm SO blessed and lucky to be able to come home. I am just so over moving and living in foreign places, haha. I am so ready to just settle down and start my life. Looks like that is going to happen though and I am so excited!!! Sigh, well time to enjoy my last night in Miami (skipping parties and watching Grey's and ER instead :D) and wake up to fly back home - where I belong!

Almost time for Miami...

Just about two days left until I take off for Florida to take my exam... Yikes. I am nervous. I am honestly now just looking forward to it being over and getting to enjoy my last 2 weeks in the house before heading to Saginaw. I'm so glad not to be dreading 5th semester. I know I would be if I was going back to the island or Miami. I'm so lucky!

When I get down there I will be staying with my friend Lynn (thank you!!) and I can't wait! It was so nice of her to offer me a place to stay and it will be very nice to save the money. But, I will only be staying from Tuesday night until Friday morning and will be back by 2:30pm! So glad I will be back for the weekend and just get to focus on relaxing - like REAL relaxing.

Well, I'm going to head to bed - I want to hit First Aid and Goljan first thing tomorrow and do as much as I can. I probably won't be able to write until I get back but if I can get on the internet I will! Wish me luck and say prayers for me! I really needs this to go well...

Preparing for the NBME Comprehensive Exam...

The new year is here and off to a great start! I am so happy being home. I have been studying but really need to rev it up a bit more. My exam is on the 17th of this month and am hoping that the work that I have done will benefit me a bit. I really just want to pass. That is all I have to do - pass. A 64% on this exam would approximately equal a 185 passing score on the USMLE Step 1 exam that I will be taking in May hopefully.

Otherwise, I haven't been up to very much. Just hanging out with friends on the weekends, taking care of my sweetie and the house and studying while he is off at work. Looking forward to this week and getting some good work done. I will be leaving for Miami, where I will be taking my exam, on the 15th (Tuesday) and coming back on the 18th (Friday) hopefully in complete celebration. I have been told that no matter what, I will feel like I failed the exam. I hate that feeling and hope I am not feeling too low after... ah well.

I'm definitely have been getting in some good 1st year review which is really nice - time to get back to my 2nd year material again but I just keep finding more to go through. I am mostly using my First Aid book and the Cases book that goes along with it. Well, time to get some rest and start up my day tomorrow - so much still that I can go over!!!