Pushing forward - Second call over...

Time just keeps on tickin' and a good thought for all of you out there dreading surgery - days go by quickly. Seriously, hours just fly and before you know it you are mid-afternoon so close to getting home. Of course, some days drag on but the majority of the time it goes fast - especially if you keep yourself busy as much as possible. Here is a BIG tip in surviving surgery (while I know I am nearing only 2 weeks into it):

1.) CHANGE YOUR MENTALITY!!! I had to very much so. Not so much physically but I thought that I would seriously die from this rotation out of exhaustion and harassment from the surgery team. Things truly now (at least for this month) could not be further from the truth. It is so hard for me not to say, "Three months to go.". It made me sad and cry everyday before I just came to change my mentality. I don't even count my 3rd month now because it is 16 shifts of 10 hours in the ER. Not bad, no call. So now from 12, I am down to 8 weeks, 2 of which are nearly over. Changing your mentality! It is hard for me to take it one day at a time but really, with the trauma team I am on, I do feel like I am a wee bit useful with my getting up way before the crack of dawn to pre-round on as many patients as I can to lighten the load for the rest of the team. Of course, I hope it impresses them, hope that it is appreciated and noticed - but above all I have changed my mentality. I now tell myself, "The more you do in pre-rounding, the quicker you can get to relax before rounds, finish rounds and get back to the apartment."

I cannot even explain how much of this is a mental game to convince yourself to push onward one day at a time. I resisted so hard to change the way I thought. I still will have hard days and some of the hardest are when my perspective is lost, in that I WILL be done with soon. It is just another hurdle and the best time of my life is yet to come when I move back home, get married and more! In this rotation though, getting up in the morning is still the worst part of my day, but knowing I will be in the hospital within the hour pre-rounding and getting the job done makes me happy because that probably the one time of the day I can truly shine and show that I am up for the challenge. Questions you can get wrong, procedures you can do and be talked though, but here is the one time you can show true initiative.

2.) Surgery cannot - I repeat - cannot take away your "me" time!!! I have a strict schedule (kinda). I need my time and I will have it - even if it means that I get less sleep. I shower before bed, have my clothes laid out so when I roll out of bed I get dressed and walk about the door (without breakfast (I can get some food in the resident on-call room), I can do it in 10 minutes!) I finish my day (12-13 hour days when I am not on call lol) - but then? Well, I workout! Something I refuse to compromise on. Before surgery I did 5 days a week. That is a bit too much I think to handle for me, so I count my on-call days as "workout days" even though it isn't much of a workout. Just the mental stress and physical stamina it takes is enough. So technically, with that I still get my 5 days a week. What else? I get in a bubble bath when I feel like I need one, have a cocktail or two (;D), watch TV (while looking up things I jotted down thoughout the day during rounds that I didn't understand) and do some leisure reading (reading "Marley and Me" right now). Whatever you would like to do - DO IT. There is time, even if it is cut short you don't come home to dread another day because you "don't have a life". Sure you are in the hospital 6 days a week - well that day off will be FAB-u-lous!

Can you see this post is really for me still, too? Haha, okay - I have more tips I am sure to come but those are so far up on the list, I had to talk about them. If anyone ever feels that dread or worry for what lies ahead - I am here if you need it. These past 2 weeks have really hit home for me and while I know I am here for those who need it, being able to talk about this here makes me feel that I am not alone either...

As my family says, stop and look back on all you have accomplished! Look at all the steps it took for you to get where you are! Be proud of yourself and know you have the strength in you to reach your dream. Stay as focused as you can, try your best to avoid the wrong mentality and always make time for the one of great importance - YOU! Everyone needs to be reminded of this from time to time... even me....

I'll be writing soon so stay tuned :)...